Arrogance

how can some people be so arrogant?

i have been dwelling on this question for the past few days.

a few weeks ago, i was driving in obrero. the problem was there were two vehicles parked on both sides/corners. this made it difficult for me to see any oncoming vehicles.

so what i did was slowly push forward as i was carefully peering into the left side, making sure that no vehicle was passing through.

and then suddenly.. a white nissan terra came overspeeding and almost hit me.

just like this.

we both braked on time. however, the key point was the driver stepped on the acceleration just enough for it to jump. and then braked. rolled down the window, and both tried to give me a death stare.

and they were women, too.

excuse me? was i the one overspeeding? and was i the one aggressively driving?

some people could get shot that way. road rage can be blinding.

especially if the other party is not careful.

and i will say it though. yabang can be fatal.

Dear Anak: I Heard You Laugh Today

yes, i am now a father. quite recently. less than 5 months ago. and all i can say is that my life has changed for the better.

all my life i was always trying to be better. just to improve myself. i have had my failures and i have always tried to live not just for myself, but for other people as well.

but when my daughter finally came, things just changed.

ang una kong ginawa, maliban sa makarga, magpakilala, at mahulog ang loob, ay mangarap.

how could it be possible to have lived life so selfishly without even knowing it? or have we been living selfishly without intending to?

this is probably dad's favorite photo of us. he had it framed.

or rather, how can this moment make me realize that there was still so much more to give in this life?

hindi na ako nangangarap merely for myself. but for my daughter. everything i do, i try to consider how it will affect the life of my child. i cannot speak for my wife but i'm sure it could be similar for her as well.

and for the first time in what seemed ages, i heard by baby laugh. i made her laugh.

and how sweet it was to hear. this could be a thesis proposal. does the ears have a direct connection to the heart?

thank you, God, for making me experience how it is to be father.